nighttime illusory malfunction

the kind of love you lose every day

when thinking of watch yourself calmly cut off pieces

half a finger, half an arm, one ear. 

away from olive boughs the world is electric and cruel, cloaked in fleeting inspiration

floating circus tents
dollar stores

don't you understand, I was soul shocked
now i am just wise and quietly dissatisfied

glow in the dark Jesus statues 

balance crumbles me into a ripe fruit
and blur into cozy embers 

its no use

i can't stay mad at you 

i failed this time around

ill meet you wherever we met before

emerging from our last cocoons 

with foggy trees, cool fingers and chests like furnace

promise you'll look for me
even if only out of malicious curiosity 

or this life is in vain